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07:51pm 19/12/2006
 
mood: cold
So...it's be like,what,5 months since my last post?wow..well..i can't type much b/c i have a bum finger and it hurts when i type so i'll sum it up:
-got a new job i love
-just got over the stomach flu
-got a "cherry" chocolate phone to match my car(LOL)
-going back to school in fall

so....all is well,thanks for asking...hehe.

~Merissa~
 
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wow...3 months,eh?   
10:40pm 06/07/2006
 
mood: calm
Yeah...i've been kinda busy lately hence lack of updating-ness...lol...so i've been pretty good...hangin' with good people and such...4th o' july was aight...went to a block party in venice...very loud but fun...lol...im pretty good right now with people...fortunately i have people who love me and are able to spend time with me while others,well,just don't. And it's thier loss 'cause i at least can tell who truly cares by how much time and effort they put into a relationship...it took me all this time to realize it but im glad i know now...because at least i can look myself in the mirror and say "i did everything humanly possible(and then some)and now im ok with letting go".So goodbye,good riddance,have a nice life,and im shutting the door NOW!
 
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im done with it all...   
11:14pm 08/04/2006
 
mood: for the last time!
Do you ever feel like people just don't care enough?it can be about anything....but im referencing people just don't seem to care enough about YOU! Like they are too lazy or unsympathetic to care...about all the effort you put out to keep the connection. It's obvious to those around you that the connection is barely there already so why don't i just use my remaining strength to cut it?What is the definition of care?well,it's:to feel interest or concern.

Well,i'm done being either interested or concerned. It's not worth the trouble.

I'm done.
 
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05:06pm 03/04/2006
 
mood: depressed

So...it's been a while since i vented...i hate my job...this person i work with just decided one day "i'm going to be mean to merissa 'cause it's fun!" so i have to deal w/her,for example,saying something about me to someone loud enough for me to hear...it's like,you have a problem with me,SAY IT TO ME! It's like I feel like i'm in high school again with this stuff so i'm considering leaving...we'll see how that works out.

I also might have to sell my car 'cause i don't think i can afford to pay for it for the next 3 1/2 years...too much of a burden. All in all,pretty sucky.

Oh...did I mention my brother has schizophrenia?Yeah,we just found out a couple of weeks ago so these idiotic people in my life are NOT making it any easier to cope. 

That's about it for now but,if i can think of anything else,you know where to find me!

~Merissa~

 
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09:18pm 24/01/2006
  I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE. I JUST WANNA DIE  
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blah   
05:40pm 18/01/2006
 
mood: accomplished
I've been so "blah" lately,if that makes sense....I get so upset when a friend can't even make the time in their busy lives for me when I have just as a busy life yet i'm still able to find the time to at least call them. Grr. And the fact that most of them don't drive is a hinderance as well. I understand now how much of a pain in the ass it can be to have to go out of your way over and over and over again like some of my friends had to do w/me back in the days. If i could,i'd apologize for asking for a ride so many times 'cause it ain't easy being the "driver".And something else that bothers me is when I go out of my way over and over again to pick someone up and they can't even offer gas money. It's so expensive these days, that's the least they can do. Goodness. God,it feels really good to vent. I haven't in a really long time.

Oh,and before I go, I found it so freaking funny when reading someone else's journal that someone still posts anonymously just as they used to do in high school on livejournal. Sometimes,I would just love to do extensive research, find out who this person(people) are and out them to the world,like,you chicken shit,you don't even have the balls to post openly.lol.Just another random thought out of my very jumbled head. God,i could really use a drink now.

~Merissa~
 
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im bored   
06:07pm 06/01/2006
 
mood: bored
i haven't updated in a while...so in the past year,i've been in 2 car accidents,got a job i hate,been bitched at more and more by the parents that claim love me,and didn't get any so blah!!!so here's to a MUCH better 2006!!
 
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yay   
10:25pm 16/11/2005
 
mood: bouncy
kroq acoustic christmas...me and krystin....dec 11th....my bday gift to myself....CAN'T WAIT!!buying tickets tomarrow.....hope they're good seats! wish me luck!!!
 
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why hello there!   
04:20pm 26/09/2005
 
mood: contemplative
So..i haven't "updated" in a while...i'm at school now...just took a test in comm....i think i did ok....i've been really busy with school,work,etc....i will be going to see The Rolling Stones in Nov...i'm so excited...i can't wait...hmm....not much else....i took a house-sitting job recently but i haven't really been at the lady's house 'cause it's too quiet...eek....anywho,not much else to say...oh...i've also put things into perspective when it comes to my social life...after years of trying this and trying that,i've found out that friends come and go......but im not worried about it as much...i'm just having fun with the ones that care about me :-)...the genuine ones...yep...i am truly happy.

~Merissa~
 
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ahhhhhhh!!   
08:42pm 23/09/2005
 
mood: excited
im going to see the rolling stones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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hellllo   
04:09pm 24/08/2005
 
mood: content
I'm in montana right now and it's been chill...helping my aunt fix her house up before she moves...but today i get to (hopefully) go to a lake and fish...yeah,me fishing...how awesome is that...and hopefully we'll either end up horseback riding or going white-water rafting...i've done both so either one is cool...i'ts been cool hanging with my uncle..i usually don't hang out with him but it's been kinda fun...it's kinda nice being away from the parents...i think we all needed a break so ya...that's about it for now...oh...and also, my hectic schedule begins monday with school/work so if anyone wants to hang, you better plan it with me...no last minute shit,aight?lol...w/e...im playin'....so I better get off this now 'cause i'm goin' fishin'...later y'all.

Love,

Merissa
 
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01:07pm 18/08/2005
  you know what?im leaving tommarrow and im happy. i don't care that no one (except krystin) calls me and tries to see me before i go. im leaving and u all have fun.whatever.im out!  
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long time....   
12:28pm 14/08/2005
 
mood: contemplative
So it has been quite a while since i updated on this this thingie....i've been busy working 40 hr. weeks so i can pay for my car...so...let's see...where to begin...

~i love my car...it's my baby...lol...i know,sad..hehe...it's hella expensive though

~i'm starting school again...yay!i know..i'm shocked too that i am actually excited to start school again...maybe it's because i'm taking classes that i will enjoy..english 2 and communications...AND i'm taking communications w/laura so it'll make it easier....what wont be easy though is working and going to school...these will be my weekly hours:
MON&WED:work 9-2;classes from 3:30-7
TUES,THURS,&FRI:work 9-5:30
SAT:work 9:30-2:30

so...joy...could u handle that? i think im strong enough to so we shall see...

~going on vacation on fri...to montana, for 10 days..yay...no work...i am soooooo excited...although there was a plane crash in greece so im only a teensy bit worried/scared/panic-y.....w/e...it'll be ok

that's about it for now...i'll try to keep this thing update...if i don't....oh well...te-he-he

later..im out!

~Merissa~
 
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STAR WARS!!!STAR WARS!!!STAR WARS!!!STAR WARS!!!   
07:27pm 19/05/2005
 
mood: excited
hehe....star wars in one hour....yay...im a nerd...i know....BUT I DON'T CARE!!lol...hehe
 
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i done stole this....hehe   
06:51pm 12/05/2005
 
mood: disappointed

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M </b>
04. Dogma

05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride

07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King

11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow

19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead - the original, George Romero-directed film, that is
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies

26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple

30. The Saftey of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.

35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop

41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination

44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. The Crow </b>

48. The Princess and the Warrior
49. Seabiscuit
50. Hard Core Logo
51. Phantom of the Paradise
52. Zardoz
53. Lost in Translation
54. American Beauty

55. Big Fish
56. Starship Troopers
57. Starship Troopers 2
58. The Lost Boys
59. All About Eve
60. Showgirls
61. Swept Away - The remake with Madonna
62. Star Wars: A New Hope

63. Black Hawk Down
64. Elizabeth
65. The Shawshank Redemption
66. Four Weddings and a Funeral
67. The Sound of Music

68. Notting Hill
69. Scotland, pa
70. Oxygen
71. Ringu (Original Japanese version)
72. Shrunken Heads
73. Legends
74. About a Boy
75. Lilo and Stitch
76. Who Framed Roger Rabbit?

77. Pitch Black
78. Maid in Manhattan
79. Willow
80. Secret Of Nymh
81. Throughly Modern Millie
82. The Cutting Edge
83. Anna and the King
84. The American President
85. Save The Last Dance
86. Grease
87. Dirty Dancing

88. Mad Love
89. Lantana
90. Kiss the Sky
91. Braveheart

92. Dark City
93. SLC Punk!
94. Memento
95. In America
96. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
97. The Wedding Planner

98. Empire Records
99. Edward Scissorhands
100. Almost Famous

101. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie
102. Star Trek Generations
103. Beyond The Mat
104. Transformers: The Movie
105. Scary Movie
106. X-Men
107. Ghost

108. Changing Lanes
109. Hangman's Curse
110. Broken Arrow
111. Mona Lisa Smile
112. Moulin Rouge

113. The Ninth Gate
114. Emma
115. The Name of the Rose
116. Top Gun
117. Heartbreak Ridge
118. U-57
119. Ghost Ship
120. Johnny English

121. Dirty Dancing Havana Nights
122. The Fifth Element
123. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
124. Holes
125. The Pianist
126. Amelie
127. Road Trip
128. Miracle
129. Center Stage
130. Spider Man
131. Exorcist

132. Oman
133. 8 Mile

134. Son in Law
135. Stepmom
136. Hotel Rwanda
137. Shaolin Soccer
138. The Notebook

umm...i'd like to add 1. Spider Man 2,       2.The Breakfast Club,     and 3. Sixteen Candles 

 
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oh my love   
11:05pm 03/05/2005
  hola mi amor....oh how much you mean to me...you are the love of my life and always will be...i do not think u know how much you mean to me...u are my everything always and forever. please know i will cherish you to the ends of the earth.  
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la la la   
11:10pm 29/04/2005
 
mood: buzzed
im sleepy and a little buzzed but i'll write this anyways....been working so bloody much that i get tired sooo friggin easily now...even on weekends when i would normally stay up until all hours...grr...i wanna go out but am always tired...grr...ok...enough complaining now...i need to go out and do something,other than gay clubbing...it's fun sometimes but,um, i am straight so it would be nice to go to a STRAIGHT club...lol...w/e...im kinda driving now even though it has to be w/someone over 18 w/a license it's all good...i'll have my licence in a few weeks than laura and i can go out wherever we want :-D.....ok....head hurts from thinking of anything more to say so thats it later homiez...god i should never say that again...im so sad...lol
 
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07:12pm 07/04/2005
 
mood: sleepy
i havent updated in a few months so...been working like a meth addict on red bull...um...it sounded funnier in my head...anyways,it's cool though cuz ive got ::cue theme song to "the apprentice:: money money money moooooney...money....hehe...ya...that's the nice outcome of all the hard work i do...so yep...that's about it....saw sin city....just as good as i thought it'd be...don't work tomarrow....i am sooo friggin' happy 'cause i'm tired as hell right now so ya...that's about it.

~merissa~
 
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10:15pm 23/02/2005
 
mood: pissed off
sometimes i really hate living in this fucking house
 
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12:48pm 11/02/2005
 
How to make a missygall17
Ingredients:

5 parts jealousy

3 parts ambition

1 part empathy
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion
 
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